An hour ago, I have received and SMS from Welkie informing that he saw Xai-xai. Not much detail in his SMS but his message "bossing kita ko ni Xai2 ganina", made me feel at ease for almost six months of having not heard about my daughter.
The last time that we spent together was last holy week. I brought her here in Cebu for us to bond together during the holidays. We sleep together, take a bath together, plays at Mc Donalds, Jones which is just 200 meters away from our house. I tried to go out early so we could have longer time to play. And, that made my routine for 2 weeks while Xai-xai is staying with me.
Aside from all of those mentioned activities above, she also acted as my model in my self photography training. I had some fun photos of Xai playing in our room.
There are lots of unforgettable moments during our last bonding. I used to hear her singing barney songs, and the youtube famous "Ken Lee" of Valentina Hasan of Bulgarian Idol who intended to sing Mariah Carey's version of "Without You".
I once also left her at Playhouse for 3 hours. 'Twas our badminton finals and if I'm going to bring her at the Holiday Spa where our badminton tournament was held, I am sure I can't play a single game because I am pretty sure she will be the one to get my racket first and play. So, I decided to just leave Xai-xai at the Playhouse with Randulf and Jiejie. While at the playhouse, she was able to experienced being bully'ed by other children but most importantly was able to win a friend and learned new things in there that cannot be found in Bohol. She told me that night that she played Dora games in the computer at playhouse.
The last two days of Xai-xai's stay, I was really amazed by her memory. We were in a taxi in our way to Ayala to shop when I heard her "Daddy, Look! Jollibee is there!" even if Jollibee is still a few meters away from us and is still not visible. She was able to memorize almost all Jollibee nearby.
The day before sending her back to Bohol was really a hard time for me not just knowing that I'm gonna miss her already but the way she acted upon. She knew that she's about to leave and am going to bring her back to Bohol. As a sign of refusal, she didn't sleep with me, she didn't want to take a bath, eat and change her clothes. It hurts me so badly. We do have the same feelings. We're both were missing each other already.
Here comes the worst of all. In our way to Jagna, when we where still in Tagbilaran and was onboard a V-Hire, she shouted and cried. She repeatedly said "Oh No!" which means, she didn't like to go back in Jagna. She just stop crying when she felt sleepy. She woke up when we were in Jagna and was tightly hugging me like not letting me go. When we arrived her lola's home, her mom was waiting with us. Unexpectedly, was bugging me why I didn't bring her back after a week.
There are lots of things that had happened that Xai-xai should not be there to witness. My mind was with her. I kept on asking her if she's fine but she didn't utter a single word. She was just pretending like she hears nothing. I knew that there was a little guilt in her because she forced me to get inside their house.
We went home, crying and my heart was aching and missing her a lot. I haven't heard a single news about her for the past five months and now that I heard that she's just there, my heart is shouting for joy. I am so tired. I wanted to go home but opted to write the blog to let her know that I love her so much. I miss you a lot Xai. I love you baby. Daddy's always here for you no matter what.
Playing the Cam with Xai-xai
Xai-xai acting as Model
Getting ready to bed.
Xai-xai acting as Model
Getting ready to bed.
