Xai-xai's Birthday is Coming

This coming Friday is the 5th birthday of Xai-xai. For the past four years, I have been a witness of Xai-xai's happiness on her birthday.

On her first birthday, I bought her a red dress with red head band. We heard mass with her mom. Then, at lunch time, the party started and at 3:00 PM, we had a humble children's party.

On her second birthday, I bought her again a red dress. It's Chinese designed and really fitted for Xai-xai. She looked so beautiful and happy playing with the kids that we invited to attend for her party.

Unfortunately, I wasn't able to keep a copy of her pictures during her first and second birthday celebrations. It's in her album. I don't have a digital copy of it.

On her third birthday, I knew she wished to have her family complete, but unfortunately, her mom is not with us anymore. There were plenty of foods prepared. I bought her a nice dress, cakes, ballons, banner, giveaways, ice cream and many others. Honestly, I am struggling to win her heart. Seems like that she didn't prefer to have me in her side. But after a constant visit, I did and even until now I knew Xai-xai knows that I love her so much and I am willing to do everything for her.

Her fourth birthday came and for the first time, we celebrated it other than the usual place. We celebrated her birthday in Cebu and in Inabanga, Bohol. We went to the church first then we went to ride a carousel, a train and many others. We had our sumptuous birthday bash at Jollibee. Xai-xai loved it so much because of the slides and she was able to meet new friends.
The following day, we went to Inabanga, Bohol. This is the first time that she celebrated her birthday with my family in Inabanga. I was so happy to see her wearing the sweetest smile I've ever seen in her face. She had a lot of fun with her cousins, aunties, uncles, lolos and lolas. She even joined the games and the pictorials. She ate a lot of cake and ice cream and really had fun, fun and fun.

Oh my! I don't want to cry. :-) . I just miss my lovely daughter. I have been thinking a lot these past few days on what to do on her birthday. Will I risk to see her and greet her a happy birthday personally or just stay home and pray that she might be happy to celebrate her 1st birthday without me on her side?

I know there's only one thing that I need to do. Pray to Him to guide me and do the best for my Xai-xai for her 5th birthday.

Advance Happy Birthday Xai. Dad loves you so much.

Xai-xai watching the Game


Riding a Carousel with Daddy




Birthday banner on her 4th Birthday at Badiang, Inabanga


Xai-xai sporting her birthday Dress


Shopping for her 3rd Birthday Party

Now I Know Xai is there

An hour ago, I have received and SMS from Welkie informing that he saw Xai-xai. Not much detail in his SMS but his message "bossing kita ko ni Xai2 ganina", made me feel at ease for almost six months of having not heard about my daughter.

The last time that we spent together was last holy week. I brought her here in Cebu for us to bond together during the holidays. We sleep together, take a bath together, plays at Mc Donalds, Jones which is just 200 meters away from our house. I tried to go out early so we could have longer time to play. And, that made my routine for 2 weeks while Xai-xai is staying with me.

Aside from all of those mentioned activities above, she also acted as my model in my self photography training. I had some fun photos of Xai playing in our room.

There are lots of unforgettable moments during our last bonding. I used to hear her singing barney songs, and the youtube famous "Ken Lee" of Valentina Hasan of Bulgarian Idol who intended to sing Mariah Carey's version of "Without You".

I once also left her at Playhouse for 3 hours. 'Twas our badminton finals and if I'm going to bring her at the Holiday Spa where our badminton tournament was held, I am sure I can't play a single game because I am pretty sure she will be the one to get my racket first and play. So, I decided to just leave Xai-xai at the Playhouse with Randulf and Jiejie. While at the playhouse, she was able to experienced being bully'ed by other children but most importantly was able to win a friend and learned new things in there that cannot be found in Bohol. She told me that night that she played Dora games in the computer at playhouse.

The last two days of Xai-xai's stay, I was really amazed by her memory. We were in a taxi in our way to Ayala to shop when I heard her "Daddy, Look! Jollibee is there!" even if Jollibee is still a few meters away from us and is still not visible. She was able to memorize almost all Jollibee nearby.

The day before sending her back to Bohol was really a hard time for me not just knowing that I'm gonna miss her already but the way she acted upon. She knew that she's about to leave and am going to bring her back to Bohol. As a sign of refusal, she didn't sleep with me, she didn't want to take a bath, eat and change her clothes. It hurts me so badly. We do have the same feelings. We're both were missing each other already.

Here comes the worst of all. In our way to Jagna, when we where still in Tagbilaran and was onboard a V-Hire, she shouted and cried. She repeatedly said "Oh No!" which means, she didn't like to go back in Jagna. She just stop crying when she felt sleepy. She woke up when we were in Jagna and was tightly hugging me like not letting me go. When we arrived her lola's home, her mom was waiting with us. Unexpectedly, was bugging me why I didn't bring her back after a week.

There are lots of things that had happened that Xai-xai should not be there to witness. My mind was with her. I kept on asking her if she's fine but she didn't utter a single word. She was just pretending like she hears nothing. I knew that there was a little guilt in her because she forced me to get inside their house.

We went home, crying and my heart was aching and missing her a lot. I haven't heard a single news about her for the past five months and now that I heard that she's just there, my heart is shouting for joy. I am so tired. I wanted to go home but opted to write the blog to let her know that I love her so much. I miss you a lot Xai. I love you baby. Daddy's always here for you no matter what.

Playing the Cam with Xai-xai


Xai-xai acting as Model


Getting ready to bed.

All About Ma Baby Xai

All About Ma Baby Xai